it has been a week i would like to never repeat, and wish i could forget most of it as well.
if you know me, you know i don't give many people chances, and i do not forget/let go of anything.
so this week will be a hard one to get over but im sure i will.
it started with one of the most important people to me not being the best he could be, causing a lot of pain to me and more importantly disappointing me by not being there when i needed him.
then you added in 3 teachers being bit, a nap only one day, 2 nap times with no less than 40 minutes of crying, being told this is not the career for me, there will alwasy be kids this aweful and this may.
and that was just the tip of the ice burg that led to some aweful nights and a VERY unbelievably long week.
it also led me to thoughts of my life and realizing how much i miss some friends that i never really thought i would miss, so i want to find some ways to see them more and have some fun and let off some steam and lose some sleep. also, missing some amazing kids and their parents a lot because they were so beyond so many of the kids i have now and yet they were younger, and with everything going so poorly just wondering if i should have gone with them,or at least continued on the nanny path...i still miss the nanny life a lot but i think this is a better place for me to be longterm. i still really want to be inoregon for so many reasons...but again, long term this is better.
however, after many tears, a great deal of anger, and a lot of time thinking....i think school has been fixed after a long chat with the director, i think things are okay with the one important to me, i think i have some fun things to do with friends im missing, and that only leaves orgeon, which will alwasy been a dream vacation, maybe it will happen soon.but unlikely as it is, at least i can keep in touch and watch some videos and dream of a vacation if time and money ever permit in the near future.
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