goodbye little ones...

well after 7 great months today is my last day...
they are currently safely tucked in bed and sleeping, finally...
i got to feed them dinner, put their jammies one, tuck them in, read them a story and say goodnight...but it was the last time i will see them most likely...
they are leaving thursday and today is my last day..
so lets see when i met them they each had about 5 real words, now they have over 150, I counted. they have grown a lot, they are way more mobile and physical, they climb on everything. They are now feeding themselves with utensils not their hands, they love me and go to me over mommy and daddy once in a while, they listen to me wonderfully the large majority of the time, we go to sensory time a lot which they love, we go to the library, which not even mommy has done with them. we went to penny pickles which was an intersting adventure, we play games, we read books, we do projects, we watch movies, and other than the last 2 weeks, they slept pretty good most of the time....
they are really good kids, i have truely enjoyed getting to be a part of this part of their lives, but tonight saying goodbye was hard. weird that it was hard, because stuff like this doesn't bug me usually, stuff like this is never a big deal, and yet with these two it is sad, i genuninely will most likely never get a chance to see them again because they are going to be states away. its sad. but they will be closer to family and im not willing to move to oregon despite being asked so nothing we can do about it. i have enjoyed the last few weeks with them, just enjoying the little moments of up and laughs over little things like "get you" and "side down". its been fun. they have grown a lot. i will miss them.

so excited...and yet so sad...

well...my current position is over in 2 weeks, sooner if i need to start another position.
it is ending because she quit her job, they want me to come to oregon with them...
they really like me, it has nothing to do with me...
but none the less it is ending...
no more time with these two will be sad, no more chances of evening babysitting in the future considering they will be in another state...
its sad to know i won't see them again...
they are awesome kids, who seem to really have bonded with me...
its sad thinknig about the other kids ive really bonded with two, but those ones i could see if i wanted, but the twin,s i really won't have the option....
so that is so so so sad...
but on the other hand....after some confusion and indecision...i found the PERFECT!!! house.
i got a home inspection on one house and right after went straight to see a second house for sale, not because the inspection went poorly, but just because...
and oh my!!! i walked in and it was perfect,
an amazing fireplace,
two giant trees in the backyard
a good sized back yard, already dived for a garden and dog,
a 2 car garage,
the third bedroom i want for resale,
a nice kitchen with a bar,
absolutely no work needed
a workable driveway
walls drywalled
and a decent pricetag...
so we made an offer, and in 6 hours it was accepted....and we are moving forward,
did an inspection there which went spectacular...
signed more and more and then some more papers......
and now just waiting for some final things to happen and then I get KEYS!!!!
that I am very excited about!!!

but how can I be excited and truely enjoy shopping for things for my house, and looking at the house, when all i can really think of is I can't pay for this, how will I pay my bills, where will my money come from, bye bye to savings acount AGAIN, i can't buy anything for my new house, i may not even be able to move into my new house....
so im trying to think positive and remember that God would not have provided this oppurtunity if he didn't also have a plan to provide something to make it work out. so i need ot trust and have fiath and just be patient and he will work out me finding a new job with the same pay and all that....but trust is not something that comes easily....and PATIENCE is a complete joke for me, so im having a bit of trouble, but doing my best to still just have fiath and enjoy the process of finding things and planning out my new house...

so im excited and sad at the same time....

Pumpkins!!!!

so last Friday we went to the pumpkin patch, I asked first to see if parents wanted to be the first to take them but they didn't care, and I wanted to make sure we got it in before they are gone. So I asked if they wanted to see pumpkins and wow!!! Henry stopped in his tracks, jumped up and down and yelled pumpkins so excitedly waving his arms in the air in the process...im not even sure he knew what a pumpkin was at the time. but off we went...and it started slow, they weren't quite sure what to do...but eventually

he discovered that touching the pumpkins was fun, apparently he liked the texture...but here he is trying to roll the pumpkin, but its the best picture i got that day...

Abbie, was a bit unsure of what to do with the pumpkins that it took a while for her to discover they were pumpkins not apples. but with a lot of correction she figured it out, and decided eventually that sitting on the hay with the pumpkins was fun....

they eventually got brave and explored on their own, not just following me around...but they liked the green pumpkin..

then came the hard part...attemping to get two toddlers, who were not overly interested to smile and look at the camera at the same time...so this is one of many attempts....

and sadly...this is the best of the bunch...but hey, i did try, and maybe if we go back again it will be more fun...who knows? maybe we can get a better picture.

overall though it was a fun morning activity to get us out of the house, and in the end they spent the rest of the day telling everyone "pumpkins fun"...and no I was not saying that to them over and over agian, they came up with it on thier own.