crazy as always....

well there is a lot I want to put on here, like the pictures of me racking up all the leaves that have been burrying my yard for the last month. like me fixing my washing machine all by myself. like the girls weekend we just had that was shockingly pretty fun, like things about my puppy, like things about a great guy that may not be perfect but the fact that i still think we are perfect makes it all right.
but instead for many reasons I will just jot down a few tid bits of life, mainly because i cannoy upload pictures at the moment because i seem to be misplacing a lot of things lately, and memory card readers are on that list.

so last saturday afternoon my mom, cousin, and aunt came out to vist and have what was supposed to be a girls weekend but turned into a girls afternoon/night.....
i was not really looking forward to it because lets face it, i don't really enjoy long periods of family, and they got there and all of them seemed angry about something so i got even less in the mood for the rest of the day....
but it turned out we had a lot of fun, or at least i did. We drove around town seemingly aimlessly a bit, looking for a few things. We got lunch which was yummy, we got Mac's picture taken with santa which went well and gave mac the chance to see other dogs which she desperately needs, we then went and painted for a few hours which I turly enjoyed doing and I think our creations came out very well, we then went and got our traditional starbucks drinks and headed out for christmas lights, we ended up only looking at one street of lights but let me tell you, it was absolutely AMAZING!!! and I was impressed which is very hard to do. Then we went shopping for some random things as well as for some dinner muchie/ appetizers and headed home to eat and watch how the grinch stole christmas at 10 o clock at night. we then ate and cooked and laighed a bit and and had a little surprise birthday thing for my mom and it was a good day. Then next morning we pretty much woke up and got in the car to drive home...but it was a very fun afternoon.
The night before the girls came I was not looking forward to something else that was planned...i should have been but after my night before and his day i just wasn't. I thought we would both be in a bad mood and it would be a super short unfun few hours. However, yet again I was pleasantly surprised.....i picked him up, we laughed together, he bought straps because he needed them and we looked for more lights, because he is slightly obsessed, and then we grabbed dinner. THen was the part I wasn't looking forward to...between rain, mud, me being unsure, him having had a bad day, me not caring and not wanting to put up with anything, it just wasn't set up to go well...but instead it included me being in awe of trees...ive never seen trees that big, it was weird to be so interested in them. then he said he liked a certain kind, i was like okay i don't really care, then he looked at a few but i picked one, we looked some more, but i still liked that one, and then he told the guys and they loaded it on the car and he said I was a good tree picker outter (we are very fancy people). and then we headed home. He was nice and sweet when we unloaded it, hleping me not making comments that that nigth I would have taken very personal. THen we set up the tree put ligths on and hung ornaments....there was great conversation, a lot of laughs, a puppy being amazingly good, and a good night looking at what we had done together for the third time.....it was a great night.

well so much for tid bits of life, but i don't want to forget these memories...the pictures of lights, raking leaves, mac and other things will come later......

Mac's first race

So I have been to many races and often times there are many dogs...but this was my puppies first race.

she did AMAZING!!!!

she only got scared once, and got so much more confident around all the people it was awesome.

she was not a fan of me leaving her to work on the car, but she is never a huge fan of me leaving.

she was fine on pit row, she was fine up the hill by the track, she was fine wandering through the pits, she was fine with the parites at night in the track.

it was a great weekend. She was awesome, i was hesitant because you never know what they will do, and I didn't want her to be terrified and if she would have been scared it would have been a very very very long weekend.

but it all worked out amazingly and she was defiantely the hit of the race, everyoen thought she was adorable and well behaved and being great for a puppy at the race.

and this picture is pretty cute considering what we were trying to get her to do and all....

overall a great experience and i can't wait for more races next year.

my first place...

So after months and months of searching i finally found the perfect house!!!!
the house has everything i need for a good resale, 3 bedrooms nad 2 bathrooms. and its set up if i ever get brave enough and desperate enough to find a roomate with the other bedrooms on the opposite side of the house.

it also has everything i wanted to make me happy while im here...it has a great backyard, a front porch and a fire place. and it was move in ready, not a think needed to be done to move in.

the front has a nice front porch which will eventually have 2 rocking chairs and a table so i can sit on my porch. the backyard has a nice covered patio just big enough for my picnic table and hammock and more importantly it has two GIANT trees that im in love with. then inside it has a room for a pool table, a good size kitchen for me, the bedrooms a ok sized but still big enough to be functional. and the living room has one of my favorite parts and defiantely what sold me on the house the first time i walked through the front door....

A FIREPLACE!!!!

overall...i love the house and its close to all the good stuff...close to the lake for picnics and walks with the puppy..close to both playgrounds which is cool for me. close to pools nad basketball and tennis courts...the orchards are not as close as id like but still just a short walk...
and...as ive lived there i have discovered that the guys across the street work on cars a lot...its a bug, but they still work on cars, and the guy on the corner has a verypretty old 70's ish camaro that is gorgeous and just makes me happy. so i am so excited about what my move and MY own house.

NEW

lots and lots of new

new house
new county
new puppy
new job
new class at school
new concept of living on my own
new situation with the boy friend
new stores to shop at

just lots and lots of new....
its all going pretty well so far....
but i gotta say....i think i really miss my kids....but maybe the new ones will fill the hole soon.

goodbye little ones...

well after 7 great months today is my last day...
they are currently safely tucked in bed and sleeping, finally...
i got to feed them dinner, put their jammies one, tuck them in, read them a story and say goodnight...but it was the last time i will see them most likely...
they are leaving thursday and today is my last day..
so lets see when i met them they each had about 5 real words, now they have over 150, I counted. they have grown a lot, they are way more mobile and physical, they climb on everything. They are now feeding themselves with utensils not their hands, they love me and go to me over mommy and daddy once in a while, they listen to me wonderfully the large majority of the time, we go to sensory time a lot which they love, we go to the library, which not even mommy has done with them. we went to penny pickles which was an intersting adventure, we play games, we read books, we do projects, we watch movies, and other than the last 2 weeks, they slept pretty good most of the time....
they are really good kids, i have truely enjoyed getting to be a part of this part of their lives, but tonight saying goodbye was hard. weird that it was hard, because stuff like this doesn't bug me usually, stuff like this is never a big deal, and yet with these two it is sad, i genuninely will most likely never get a chance to see them again because they are going to be states away. its sad. but they will be closer to family and im not willing to move to oregon despite being asked so nothing we can do about it. i have enjoyed the last few weeks with them, just enjoying the little moments of up and laughs over little things like "get you" and "side down". its been fun. they have grown a lot. i will miss them.

so excited...and yet so sad...

well...my current position is over in 2 weeks, sooner if i need to start another position.
it is ending because she quit her job, they want me to come to oregon with them...
they really like me, it has nothing to do with me...
but none the less it is ending...
no more time with these two will be sad, no more chances of evening babysitting in the future considering they will be in another state...
its sad to know i won't see them again...
they are awesome kids, who seem to really have bonded with me...
its sad thinknig about the other kids ive really bonded with two, but those ones i could see if i wanted, but the twin,s i really won't have the option....
so that is so so so sad...
but on the other hand....after some confusion and indecision...i found the PERFECT!!! house.
i got a home inspection on one house and right after went straight to see a second house for sale, not because the inspection went poorly, but just because...
and oh my!!! i walked in and it was perfect,
an amazing fireplace,
two giant trees in the backyard
a good sized back yard, already dived for a garden and dog,
a 2 car garage,
the third bedroom i want for resale,
a nice kitchen with a bar,
absolutely no work needed
a workable driveway
walls drywalled
and a decent pricetag...
so we made an offer, and in 6 hours it was accepted....and we are moving forward,
did an inspection there which went spectacular...
signed more and more and then some more papers......
and now just waiting for some final things to happen and then I get KEYS!!!!
that I am very excited about!!!

but how can I be excited and truely enjoy shopping for things for my house, and looking at the house, when all i can really think of is I can't pay for this, how will I pay my bills, where will my money come from, bye bye to savings acount AGAIN, i can't buy anything for my new house, i may not even be able to move into my new house....
so im trying to think positive and remember that God would not have provided this oppurtunity if he didn't also have a plan to provide something to make it work out. so i need ot trust and have fiath and just be patient and he will work out me finding a new job with the same pay and all that....but trust is not something that comes easily....and PATIENCE is a complete joke for me, so im having a bit of trouble, but doing my best to still just have fiath and enjoy the process of finding things and planning out my new house...

so im excited and sad at the same time....

Pumpkins!!!!

so last Friday we went to the pumpkin patch, I asked first to see if parents wanted to be the first to take them but they didn't care, and I wanted to make sure we got it in before they are gone. So I asked if they wanted to see pumpkins and wow!!! Henry stopped in his tracks, jumped up and down and yelled pumpkins so excitedly waving his arms in the air in the process...im not even sure he knew what a pumpkin was at the time. but off we went...and it started slow, they weren't quite sure what to do...but eventually

he discovered that touching the pumpkins was fun, apparently he liked the texture...but here he is trying to roll the pumpkin, but its the best picture i got that day...

Abbie, was a bit unsure of what to do with the pumpkins that it took a while for her to discover they were pumpkins not apples. but with a lot of correction she figured it out, and decided eventually that sitting on the hay with the pumpkins was fun....

they eventually got brave and explored on their own, not just following me around...but they liked the green pumpkin..

then came the hard part...attemping to get two toddlers, who were not overly interested to smile and look at the camera at the same time...so this is one of many attempts....

and sadly...this is the best of the bunch...but hey, i did try, and maybe if we go back again it will be more fun...who knows? maybe we can get a better picture.

overall though it was a fun morning activity to get us out of the house, and in the end they spent the rest of the day telling everyone "pumpkins fun"...and no I was not saying that to them over and over agian, they came up with it on thier own.